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What would you do if this is the last time you see a star?

Just what would you do if this is the last time you see a rainbow?

Are you gonna stay and cry helplessly?

Or are you gonna preserve and smile in front of mummy?



Who would you turn to if you ever get lost?

And just to whom would you give your last attributes and flaws?

Will you let them go when you know it’s for good?

Or would you confess your little secret in mute?



With what reason would you lie to hide those tears?

What kind of apology would you ask to make it turn around?

So where would you keep all those cloudy memories?

When everything in front is merely invisible debris?





When time drags you down to your darkest moment,

Would you run?

Or would you freeze?





When the first thing you get is the last thing you want,

The last thing you need is the first thing you hunt,

Perhaps, these littlest things mean nothing to you,

Just as much as the tiny hole in a canoe,





Neglected till regret!



hellafrenzy, 2008



Bersedialah jiwa,

Untuk hidupku yang selebih nya,

Takkan kedengaran suaranya lagi,

Takkan terlihat bayangnya lagi,

Takkan terimbas hangat cintanya lagi,

Takkan kusedar makna bahagia lagi…

hellafrenzy, 2008

Here comes my first official ‘sajak‘ (poem) in Bahasa Malaysia, *clap clap clap*

Let me translate it in English, for those who can’t understand Bahasa Malaysia. (i think i have readers who are not Malaysian) *wink*


Be prepared oh dear soul,

For the remaining moments of my life,

There will be no more of his sounds,

There will be no more of his shadow,

There will be no more of his warmth,

There will be no more of happiness…

hellafrenzy, 2008


When everyone else is wondering how their loved ones are doing, grab the phone and make the call, listen to their favorite voices, planning where and when to kill time together, when they still get the chance to be thankful to look into those addicting eyes,when they still got the chance to feel the warmth as well as cherish the magnificent moments of loving and being loved;here i am, writing, again…


This is another fray,

Something to see and say,

Squabble and mislay,

Where i am the helpless prey,

With an inevitable yesterday.


Tell me again if this is fair,

When all i’m allowed to do is only stare

Fear of being blamed if i share,

Thus, i refuse to find the one who care.


Dear calamity and mishap tragedy,

Including you, catastrophic misery,

Whichever names you hold,

Whatever stories you’ve been told,

I shall be the one to take the toll,

For all you’ve done is turn me cold.




Allow me to articulate in words and rhyme,

And let the answer to come in time,


Permit me to stay in my own solitude,

As for Him i pay my only gratitude.






-hellafrenzy (2008)






They smile,

I stare,

For the happiness they share,

I hide.

Deeper and deeper i fall,

For the reason of the dawn,

The beginning of destruction.

Perplexed i am,

Why flood before rain?

Why dream before sleep?

Why desire not lust?

Like a dog chasing its tail,

Like tears as my lullaby,

Like a blanket cuddling my sleep,

Like the beach as another me,

Odd it may seem,

Tranquil it truly is.

Oh please let me define,

What is me and what is else,

Mere disappointments i run into,

I’d do nothing but searching for clue.

Paranoia sneaking through my veins,

Leaving nothing but only pain.

If this is the fin of my sane,

Then it is nothing you call as plain.

Still i wonder,

How long can this heart ponder,

For i am broken,

Under this veil, to dust i turn.

-hellafrenzy (2008)


It’s not that i don’t try or even love to cry,

But i’m impede to fly by your simple hye.


Perhaps, these eyes are meant only to stare,

As love is what we are never going to share.


At times, my heart is frantic to say,

How i wish this feeling will eventually mislay.


For you, i shove each love from heart,

Yet i’m lost in endeavor to disregard.


If seeing me in pain makes you less a man,

Then i’d rather have you not to look at me again.


Is it true, your heart really is incapable to see?

How i’m struggling to remember what it’s like to be happy.



-hellafrenzy (2008)